Floral Buds 20th of May

Today marks a very a significant day. A day I will never forget. The visual images of a car accident, the physical dysphoria, both warning signs towards a near death experience; and as we headed into the two lane tunnel in Sicily, where in the dark our wreckage deemed loss, whilst Shaun and I were led to the light with sparred lives and memories lasting a lifetime. 

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My life still a bud before a blossom.

Into the dark tunnel we go...

Into the dark tunnel, both Shaun and I go….. 

Life allows us to live.

Life allowed us to live.

Yet darkness returned and we shrouded our past lives in an effort to forget.

Our introspection began to divide us....

Unbearable to mend…..Our introspections began to divide us……

Now a divorce dispirits yet how does pain pardon.

Now a divorce dispirits. When will the pain pardon? 

Though we share the world, we must depart within it alone.

Though we share the world, we must depart within it alone.

In full bloom again.

….and as people we will bloom again. 

An attending Sicilian Physician at the hospital evaluated my scan and noted a fracture of my c-7. Communication was impossible and I spent most of the night in excruciating pain, not knowing I had broken my neck. When released, two American Military Doctors, an Orthopedic Surgeon, the other, a Spinal Cord Specialist both noted cervical fracture c5-c-7 level with spinal cord injury. IDK. I have left leg nerve paresthesia, left hand pain&weakness, reoccurring cervical and lumbar herniation, anxiety before driving and from time to time roll-over flashbacks remind of the these words, as I watched the experience in slow motion, “I’m going to die.” Why not, “We will survive!”

JENI

All photography by me using Nikon and Auto Adjust Ipad app for color editing.

With a special credit to Shaun Johnson.

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11 thoughts on “Floral Buds 20th of May

  1. Sinful Stilettos - Avril Donohue says:

    GORGEOUS! Like yourself. Happy weekend doll! Avril xXx

    • Jeni Johnson says:

      Thank you so much Andrea, it really meant a lot to me to have you share in the experience. So happy for Super Bowl Weekend. Looking forward to another get-together. HUGS, LOVE YOU ALWAYS!

    • Jeni Johnson says:

      Mel, I had the best friends ever! Thank you as well for reading what I’ve experienced and following along. One crazy year huh? 🙂

  2. thejourney21 says:

    I’m really thankful that it wasn’t your time. You are a very inspiring/talented/awesome person. I’ve really enjoyed our interactions and I love reading your thoughts. Dodging death in my mind means that you still have a purpose and a mission for being here on earth and I’m really glad we’ve crossed paths. -Journey 😉

    • Jeni Johnson says:

      TY so much! I believe you to a very kind person with a great fashion sense! I’ve a,ways enjoyed seeing your posts and offering my opinions. Remember the deep v-neck tee for guys? LOL. Yeah, Im glad I lived to see that pic….. Hopefully I’ll feel like catching up. Hey- do you instagram?

      • thejourney21 says:

        I know right?!! *has flashback of man in dangerously deep V-neck* it was life altering… lol I hope so too! I do have Insta G! I actually just added you 😀

  3. prewitt1970 says:

    Its always a bit tricky on those days of remembrance. Ive been following your blg for almost a year now and have seen you go through many changes.
    Wishing you the best in all that you do.
    Sincerely
    Benjamin

    • Jeni Johnson says:

      Ben, you have been such a loyal reader shared wonderful pleasentries regarding myself and blog. I thank you for much and please understand that I rarely feel the excitement of blogging but ai’m hoping I will soon.

      • prewitt1970 says:

        Jeni there are ppl one comes across in life that make us want to care, you are one of those.
        Be well
        Always
        Benjamin
        Whether you blog or not.

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